It's when the same reason keeps on haunting me

Alam mo kung gaano kahirap makita ang araw araw na update ng isang tao.

sobrang torture lang.

Lahat ng paraan kasi ginagawa mo para di mo na siya maisip eh.

yung bang gusto mo nga wala ka na lang malaman at all about sa kanya eh, para clueless ka na lang talaga, para wala ka na lang talagang alam.

ang weird no?

kahit i-hide ko siya sa news feed, i-unfollow sa twitter at i-unfollow ang blog niya.

ako naman tong si luka, sinisilip pa rin profile niya.

minsan parang mas okay na lang sa akin na wala na kaming maging connection at all. 

no messages, no updates, no hi and hellos.

I think in that way, mas magiging madali ang lahat.

Eh kung maka-arte naman ako para kaming galing sa relationship tapos nagbreak na.

eh di ko nga alam kung bakit ganon yung feeling eh.

I know it's improper, its seems to be like i'm a hopeless case.

kala ko pagka nkwento ko na sa iba, gagaan na yung feeling.

but the mere fact I remember everything so right, it keeps on holding me tight and never letting me go to move on and continue my life the way it was before.

I just pray, sana mawala na lang ang connection sa aming dalawa. 

If I'll delete his number, promise I don't memorize numbers.

If I'll delete him as a friend and block him as followers, I would never find anyway to undo what I did.

Everytime I'm onto letting go, a part, a small part of me says 'no'. A part of me says, maybe there's hope. A part of me keeps on insisting work it out. 

My mind keeps on dictating its enough, but my emotions keeps on whispering hold on a bit.

"Sometimes holding on doesn't make you strong. Sometimes it's letting go."