He knew my weakness-- "killer smile"

Okay here it goes.

He was our guest professor for editing (broadcast journ class).

I was not attracted to him during the first meeting.

I was seated in front of his table, practically we were seated face to face-- he's in front of me and I was in front of him.

He actually made a good impression, he arrived earlier than the usual start of class for that subject.

My blockmates having troubles, he asked me then to relay my software to them.

"Kunin ninyo na lang yung software sa kanya (pointing towards me), ano pala name mo? (he asked me with that dashing killer smile),"

I answered with no kilig factor "Bianca po,"

"Kay Bianca," he added.

I really didn't notice that he was apparently got the looks. I was really not attracted with guys having that white complexion and big bodies.

After that meeting, I realized (with the help of the murmurs of my blockmates about him) that hey, he's really cute, No, good-looking with a killer smile with those eyes also smiling.

And that's my weakness, that killer smile with those eyes. And yes, I was attracted BUT from shoulder and up only (haha. I'm just into big bodies that much)

I don't know what happen, I just found myself "deeply" attracted to him or maybe just a bit.

Just a bit attracted not until that second meeting with him.

We had consultation with him after the short discussion, my group was the last one to consult with him.

Here's the bigger picture:

He was sitting on my left side and i was standing on the other side of the table with my groupmates and other blockmates scattered around us.

I was showing him our trial edited news cast then I asked him to teach me how to place some effects and graphics.

I asked some questions, suggestions and comments.

I was really closely listening, paying attention, watching every single command he does.

Then I say, "Thank you sir," then he left.

The little detail no one saw except me and him:

I was pointing something at the screen of my lappie while he was holding the mouse near my side.

As I move my hand away from the screen he accidentally extended his other hand to point that same thing on the screen.

What happen in that split second? 

He accidentally hold my hand (my brittle tiny hand).

The spur of the moment made me loose my focus on what he was saying and I just told him, "Ay sorry sir," then he told me, "Oops sorry,"

I was in cloud 9, the feeling actually.

I could not help but to be "KILIG-TO-THE-BONES" after that accidental thing happened.

I was happy, I was happy enough that I didn't tell anyone what had happen. I kept it to myself for a while. Enjoyed that precious memory that I know will never happen again. :)

I started talking about him to my mentor and to my closest friends who share the same sentiments I also have about him.

I followed him on twitter, talking to my friends about him (kilig stuffs teenage girls normally does. haha) not thinking that our professor sees our every tweet and probably, he also sees.

and a while ago, got the courage to add him as a friend in facebook.

My heart screamed when he accepted my friend request.

And yeah, I started "little stalking", haha, viewed some of his photos and read some of his status and tweets. It's a part of being "deeply" attracted to someone. 

Back to reality, HE'S TAKEN by this beautiful girl and maybe I won't be able to see him anymore. And his too good-looking to notice me. :)

Meaning, hanggang dito lang tong kabaliwan ko, haha.

It can't go any further than being attracted, I can't go further than having a crush on him.

And I'm Okay with it. :))

That smile will always linger in my memory and I owe him for giving it to me <3